Going crazy right now scared confused angry annoyed frustrated?

goin crazy mind racing cant stay still feel like i need to throw something or scream loudly but i cant i have someone in the house someone who i am suppose to be a carer for but i feel like im loosing it and they will see me unfit to be here and then i wont have a reason anny more i have depression and BPD but never really felt like this before i feel funny but cant tell anyonw they twill think im mad and crazy no one likes a crazy person im confused